ok

so that pound i lost?
i must have been very lucky...or at least still doing something right even though it didnt feel like it. I think that i am allergic to somehting because as i sit here my stomach hurts like hell. And i have sinned this weekend...but i have a couple of malteesers yesterday and a couple to day.. where as i would have had two packets in a day... so although i am 'out of control' its no where near as bad as i used to be. so thats something to feel grateful for. and i have been running every day for the last four days must keep this up too.

have finally signed up to the gym... now i just have to go!!! may go tomorrow night just to swim as somehow this feels less threatening so must do this... must must must.

i need to get back on track and eating healthily.. i need to. i am now a size sixteen.yay. but i have never felt thin ever...so i think there is some mental issues to sort out as well...seeingas i seem to be into the whole self sabotage thing. why am i doing this? it just makes me feel fat and ill.

I think i went out on a date last night. it was bizaar. the guy is lovely though. will have to see what happens with this. gak
and uni applicatons and tidy room

think i may drag my sorry self outside for a run tonight because i need to do it for the endorphin rush...will make me feel much better.

although i am not down just a bit grumpy with myself for being a DOOS.

ah well... *hugs all*